Victoria Beckham says documentary is like 'a year's therapy' after eating disorder admission

Victoria Beckham has claimed making her new Netflix documentary is the equivalent to “a year of therapy” after she spoke about her past demons for the first time.

The former Spice Girl and fashion designer opens up about her eating disorder and business failures for the cameras. And far from finding it traumatic, Victoria believes the process has changed her for the better.

Victoria, 51, said: “When I did my master interviews, of which there were quite a few, it was the first time I’ve ever been forced to look back. Sometimes it made me smile, sometimes it was frustrating because I’m trying to remember things that maybe I’ve blocked out, there’s a few triggers along the way. This has been like a year’s therapy for me. I feel that I went into this process calling myself a control freak and I’ve come out the other end a reformed control freak. I haven’t had the control with this documentary that I have with most elements of my life, and I feel much more content coming out the other end.”

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Victoria also said in the interview to accompany the Netflix documentary that she hopes her story can inspire others.

She said: “When I reflected on not just the Spice Girls, but my family growing up, my journey from when I was very small, I really was an underdog. If my story can inspire anyone along the way, to really not take no for an answer, to believe in themselves, not be afraid of the hard work, understand that you’re going to get knocked.

"I’ve been knocked so many times and I just bounce back up again and that doesn’t come without its challenges on you physically, mentally, emotionally, so I’d say I’ve been very honest about all of these things.”

The three part Netflix series sees Victoria and husband David discuss some areas of her life for the first time in depth.

Looking back to one tough time, Victoria said: “I really started to doubt myself and not like myself, you know, and because I let it affect me, I didn't know what I saw when I looked in the mirror.

“You lose all sense of reality. I was just very critical of myself. I didn't like what I saw. I've been everything from porky posh to skinny posh. I mean, you know, it's been a lot, and that's hard. I had no control over what was being written about me, pictures that were being taken.

“And I suppose I wanted to control that, you know, I could control it with the clothing. I could control my weight, and I was controlling it in an incredibly unhealthy way. When you have an eating disorder, you become very good at lying.

“And I was never honest about it with my parents. I never talked about it publicly. It really affects you when you're being told constantly you're not good enough, and I suppose that's been with me my whole life.”

The three part series follows Victoria from the teenager who restyled her school uniform, to the Spice Girl who fought to be accepted by a notoriously demanding fashion industry.

* Three part series Victoria Beckham is out now on Netflix.

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